If you don't know what I'm talking about, Blogtober is a linky run by Mandi at HexMum plus One that lasts the whole month with a prompt for each day. I know I'm not going to write a post everyday, but I will write as many as I can, and for some of the prompts I have an appropriate old post to link up.
I decided to take the plunge and join in with this challenge precisely because I realised that lately I've fallen into the paralysis of perfectionism trap. I've been struggling to write even one post a month, even though I have a huge backlog of post ideas and several partly-written posts. I don't seem to have as much free time to write as I used to and I tell myself this is the reason, but it's not just that. I think, somewhere deep down, something is stopping me from writing because I know that I don't have enough time to make it perfect, or I will spend to long trying to get it perfect and I end up blocking myself. Maybe, something like that. Anyway, I think Blogtober could be the kick up the bum I need to push me into writing more quickly and frequently to stick to the schedule.
So here goes. Today's prompt is "All about me" so I will try and give you a more in-depth picture of who I really am but hopefully not rambling on too much!
Where do I start?
First impressions:If you met me in person you would probably find it very difficult to get to know me. I'm not very good at conversations in general, I'm very reserved and introverted and tend to avoid revealing much about myself. Almost as if I'm ashamed of myself. It's easier in writing, anyway. I mostly live in my head, so it's interesting that I chose a job that doesn't allow me to do that and actually brings me out of myself to focus on other people (I'm a teacher in kindergarten). That might tell you that I do - subconsciously - challenge myself, or make things difficult for myself (like the time I decided to take the bus from New York City to Mexico - what was I thinking?!)
Facts:I'm British, but have lived in Mexico for the past 13 years, I'm married to a Mexican and we have a three-and-a-half-year-old daughter, Emma. I turned 40 in March this year (still haven't quite got my head round that), I stay up too late (like now) and I need a haircut.
Things that make me happy:Obviously Emma, the funny things she says, telling stories together, when she's singing, when she tells me she loves me, her cuddles.
Music. Books. Words. Time to myself.
Real conversations. The feeling of togetherness and connection with other people.
Good food. Tea and coffee. Chocolate. Ice cream.
A relaxed and leisurely breakfast (very rare).
Being able to express myself creatively, making something beautiful, seeing beautiful things.
Walks in the countryside. Travel. Noticing signs that the seasons are changing.
Watching films. Yoga.
The sea; the sight, sound and smell of it.
New clothes in my favourite colours.
Being appreciated for who I am.
Things that make me unhappy:Being told what to do. Conflict. Criticism.
My hair, frequently.
The feeling of time passing too quickly and not being able to catch up.
Realising I've made the same mistake again and beating myself up about it.
Being undermined, overlooked, ignored, insulted.
Mayonnaise. Sweet coffee. No breakfast (impossible).
Being so far away from the rest of my family in the UK and not knowing when I'm going to see them next.
Suffering, injustice, greed and short-sightedness of people in power.
No time for myself.
So there you are, that's me in a nutshell.
Let me know if there's anything else you want to know in the comments below and I'll answer!